I ended up snapping and saying “You know what no that’s not okay. I can’t make myself feel something I don’t …. like I’m aware that you’re a great guy I’m aware that you would treat me well but at the same time if the feeling isn’t there tehn it isn’t there and it wouldn’t be fair on either of us to pretend it was. So stop playing that card cause I don’t want to feel guilty for not feeling something. I’m your friend, I’ll always be that.”

I was so lucky to have such a wonderful Grandma for so many years of my life, and I am lucky still now as those you love don’t really leave you they’re still imprinted in your thoughts, in your heart, and in every choice that you make. What could be more wonderful than that. ♥